So Much I Want To Say, but i dnt know how to say it. The end of each thing is the same outcome. I'm a friend.........a FRIEND but why can't i help but to want to be something much more than that. I stopped trying because each time i try is a fail. Our once funny phone conversations turn into this...........silence. the silence.kills me.because i just want to reach out to her and tell her again nd again how i feel but it won't matter. You're a friend Joel and that's all you will ever be from now on. Get it through ur head and stop playing this silly game of cat and mouse with ur heart. She doesn't want YOU anymore, not like that anyway. But you love her, and always will.